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cloakanddaikon) wrote2012-04-09 09:20 pm
cloakanddaikon) wrote2012-04-09 09:20 pm
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Question Meme
Over a month in, a good number of comments made, first post done . . .
Sounds like a good time for a question meme.
Sounds like a good time for a question meme.
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- Ikki is one of Zexion's most important people. It's the kind of heart-deep, soul-deep connection that he will never get away from and honestly doesn't want to.
- He's not as nearly as worried about Ikki's current state as Prussia is. Part of this is still that unshakable faith in Ikki being Ikki—that he'll recover from Sabra, grow from it, because that's what Ikki does. Part is acknowledging that it's barely a few weeks, when Sabra itself lasted months upon months. And part is just . . . he doesn't love Ikki for the breadth of his wings. It's an important part of who Ikki is, a vital part, and seeing him like this definitely hurts. It's not what Zexion would have wanted for him, but honestly, neither was Sabra as a whole. But he could be far more of a wreck and Zexion would still be there for Ikki to lean on, there to nudge him back into place, there to bandage up the cuts and bruises and wounds, and send back to the people who need him to fly.
- Zexion totally moved Luka and Prussia to Λ just because Ikki and the sharks were below there.
- Being forgotten is . . . hard. Really, honestly hard for Zexion in all cases, but with Ikki there's this extra level of sadness. Watching him remember bits of his relationship with Prussia, seeing those ties pull bits from the dark . . . it's good, it is, but it wasn't until Yamamoto picked up a tiny sliver of their shared past that it really hit home that . . . with Sabra, with his own nature, it might be that Ikki's (and Agito's, and Gokudera's) memories of him might be completely beyond retrieval.
- Ikki is the one person Zexion will ever acknowledge as his world's king. And he's almost looking forward to the day he formally acknowledges that, both for Ikki's stunned silence and for the warmth it will bring to Gilbert's heart.
So what are some of Ikki's thoughts on Zexion?
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- There is a sense of familiarity with Zexion that Ikki just can't get over or ignore. It goes deeper than their relationship in Sabra, deeper than Raven and Vade, and it bothers him a lot that he can't quite pinpoint why it is or where it's from. Like it's at the tip of his fingers, but he can't quite grasp at it.
On the other hand, it's what lets him be so open with him about certain things, like having no direction and generally being more honest about what's getting to him. There's still a sense of wariness in general, but that's more because of what I wrote about above.
- It also really bothers him that he should remember Zexion, and that . . . he was somewhere else, he built these important relationships apparently, and then those memories were erased? So on the one hand, he wants to try and rebuild some of that, but on the other . . . he has this fear (and this goes for a lot of people, tbh) that Zexion and Prussia and Ringo and anyone else who knew him before Sabra expect him to be someone he can't be anymore.
- Zexion gets major points for encouraging him to violence on Prussia. Just sayin'.
Zexion on Luka?
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- Zexion honestly did not expect to meet anyone like Luka here. Even with years of camp, the only person he's ever really known with that blanket of quiet calm over intelligent competence and potential ferocity has been Lexaeus. It's comforting and comfortable and Zexion likes it.
- Luka reminds Zexion a lot of Lexaeus. Sometimes so much so that he's a little surprised when they differ.
- Zexion was completely serious when he told Luka he's had enough kids. Coming to Thusia really highlighted that outside of Lexaeus and Vexen (and in camp, Watari), he doesn't have that many people he feels comfortable leaning on or looking up to. The fact that he IS relating to Luka n that level is . . . honestly almost relieving.
- It is so good to have at least one other person here he can entrust Gilbert to and know Gilbert will be looked after.
- At the same time, Zexion worries a bit about what would happen if Gilbert was badly hurt (or even killed) in front of Luka. He doesn't know enough about Luka under stress to know how it would go, and that bothers him. He's been feeling it out in small ways.
- Zexion also worries about how Gilbert would react to losing Luka. Having your existence tied to two people (and two amnesiacs) after being a nation is a bad place to be in. but at the same time, Luka is something Gilbert desperately needs, and Zexion is really, truly grateful for that.
- Thanks to Sabra, Zexion has no objection to Luka sharing their bed no matter what the form. That fact that he is choosing to be a dog is both kind of cute and very much, "Really, you don't have to do that, it's fine."
- Generally speaking, the shapeshifting is an interesting magic. It doesn't bother Zexion at all, but then again, his original world had three-foot talking ducks and FF characters.
- It's very strange to be pinged by someone who was never a Nobody. It messes with Zexion's head a little; he has a deeply ingrained response to 'his people', and Gilbert slips under that radar. It's resulted in Zexion trusting and relying on Gilbert in far more ways than he usually would, and with less reserve.
I don't even think this is everything, so feel free to ask for further clarifications.
Reverse?
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- He isn't sure how to take Zexion, really. There isn't any negative feelings or anything, just this weird feeling of "Why does care so much". Luka has spent so much time by himself that for others to care about him outside of "can you move soldier, k get up" is a little strange to him.
- Zexion is level-headed, and Luka likes that. He likes being able to have calm, rational conversations with people, and especially with people who don't seem to mind that he doesn't talk a lot. It's sort of a comfortable thing.
- He really does slip when he calls Zexion "sir", and he really is apologetic about it. But he has spent SO LONG being a soldier that it really is habit to refer to anyone who has a higher standing then him in some way as respectfully as possible.
- In "kin" terms, he kind of sees Zexion as a cousin of sorts. Not quite from his Prussia, but from a Prussia, so there is that important connection of countrymen-ness.
- He is also secretly, extremely pleased and relieved that the shapeshifting thing isn't an issue and that he can be so open about it. It's NEW to him, and he sort of takes to it with a boyish glee, being able to shift openly without worrying about his life. And he also doesn't mind shifting into a dog, because that is by far his favorite form to "play" around in.
- Sharing beds is a strange concept and you will probably never fully convince him it's okay to do it while human. Sorry, Zexion.
- Zexion is the first person to point out his scars, and as such he's sort of . . . self-conscious about it? His body language will probably show as much, how he'll avoid revealing his hands or changing in front of him. Not BECAUSE of Zexion, really, but more because he's . . . honestly never noticed them or paid them much mind until now.
- Like Prussia, if Zexion were to be hurt or killed, Luka would kill a bitch.
Soooo, Zexion on Ikki's not-coping?
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And should it involve alcohol and thus, ultimately, our hilarious lives
These are such terrible questions that I'm not even going to bother with the appropriate punctuation, I'm sorry.
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Really, what I want is an excuse for a game of Truth or Also More Truth Because No One Picks Dare.
How much would Chrono ragequit everything if a Kururu from the Sabra bad end timeline showed up?
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Anyway OH GOSH.
Honestly, outside of like... Azmaria or Rosette showing up, that would be one of his worst nightmares imaginable. Because Feathers is supposed to be living her dream, and what's more, he saw her living it. It would be soul-crushing, and it's one of those scenarios that probably flits into his mind when he's feeling particularly full of DARKNESS, along with ideas like "somewhere we lost and I didn't get my wish and I killed Rosette." So that's the. Category of thought he puts that in... if that tells you anything. He wouldn't even know what to do with himself.
HE WOULD RAGEQUIT REALLY HARD basically. After. Just cuddling her a lot. 8(;; Feathersssss
Did Zexion have any first impressions for Chrono besides "Yep. Delphinus."
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And yes, certainly Delphinus, through and through. He's a little curious, actually; Chrono was rather fun to poke and prod through that conversation. It was like he was used to hiding much more of himself than he was actually accomplishing, and a longer conversation would likely draw out even more.
What's the reverse on the impressions side? It's probably harder to say 'Gosh he sure is a Hydra.'
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- 'Scowl', or specifically, Zexion's relationship with Scowl, is Zexion's largest and, actually, probably only regret. It was a very sharp reminder of the reality of his own nature: much as Gokudera (and Ikki) yelled at him for years for saying so, he was right to warn them away from him. And he finally proved it.
- Stumbling back from Sabra, Blade's bottled soul in one hand, the key to his people's salvation in the other, those memories hit him hard enough to leave him collapsed in an alley of the Dark City for easily hours, holding his head and feeling the rain on his neck.
- Nova is the logical outcome of Scowl, half backlash and half desperate attempt to move forward, and in its way it's as painful to watch as Ikki's mangled wings. Only in this case, there's even less that he could do because he was part of the cause.
- . . . if it were up to him, he'd never choose to have the memories Gokudera sacrificed to Leedin restored. He's been forgotten once, being forgotten again is easy enough. And like this . . . Gokudera is actually happy. Confused, worried, but . . . happy. And if those memories were that easy to give up, what right do any of us have to force them back?
- That said, Zexion still acknowledges that Gokudera Is Dumb and Gokudera Does Dumb Things Without Thinking. These are semi-universal constants that are all the more pronounced without a few years of semi-unforgiving mentoring and high standards to live up to.
- Zexion is a bit worried, actually, about how deeply Nova has separated himself from his original life, and original responsibilities. It's like, in giving that up, Nova's been left with this desperately deep hole that he'll use almost anything to fill.
- . . . Prussia just wasn't something Zexion could let Nova use. It drove the divide between them even wider, but he just . . . couldn't. It would be like offering up Hydra to become printed over with mountains and meadows, and he was incredibly relieved when Gilbert and Nova worked matters out between them. He'll wish Nova and Lucky all the best in their wishes, but even if he never leaves, this world will still never be his home.
- He's pretty sure he makes Nova uncomfortable. Probably for good reason; were their situations reversed, he wouldn't trust himself any either. Then again, he wouldn't have trusted himself in the first place, either as Gokudera or Scowl, so maybe that's not a fair comparison.
- . . . he doesn't want Nova to magically be Camp's Gokdera again. That's ludicrous and devalues all Scowl did accomplish. All his successes, as well as his scars.
He'd just like to be able to have a cup of tea with him again. Even if he'll never again hold hold a place in Gokudera's—in Nova's heart, that's fine. Nova still has a place in his.
How about Gokudera-Scowl-Nova's thoughts on Zexion?
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He's both relieved and wounded that Zexion moved out so quickly too. On the one hand, he doesn't feel like he's walking on eggshells trying to avoid that imaginary misstep he's been worrying about, but on the other . . . it IS nice on some level to have Zexion around. He respects his opinions and input on most things even if he doesn't remember them getting along well, and he's always been a hopeless sucker for positive attention like Zexion's been giving him lately. So having that removed from the apartment isn't ideal. :|a
Zexion why do you think Nova gave up his memories without expecting someone to cram them back into his skull in a fit of "NO".
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Not just any Yamamoto, either. This is Gokudera's own Yamamoto; a living symbol of all he failed to accomplish by dying in Sabra, and the one person whose very existence sends all of Gokudera's attempts to sever himself from his old life crashing to the ground. Zexion is absolutely sure that Gokudera's reaction to seeing Yamamoto here, and further, seeing him die here, was something that would have completely shattered Gokudera's ability to act rationally or sanely.
Even if the loss of his memories was something irreversible, even if that time truly would have been undone without any chance of return . . . Zexion honestly doesn't think Gokudera would have hesitated, let alone refused. It's just not the kind of person he is, no matter how many names or lives he's lived.
And, in his own, strange way, Gokudera has people here he trusts. Not in the way where he would say 'help me' before running off and getting a year's mind wipe (though that would have been the preferable route), but, as you said, people he trusts to fix his impulsive, headstrong mistakes after they've been made.
People he could entrust that younger self to, and know that they'd beat him up a little and take care of him and fix him up in whatever way they could.
. . . escaping into the past for a bit is also an effective coping method, when faced with the culmination of all your life's mistakes. That part, oddly enough, is something Zexion actually doesn't blame Gokudera-Scowl-Nova for at all. As far as these things go, it might have been the best possible route.
How is Gokudera handling Yamamoto being his Yamamoto?
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. . . yeah that's about it. Sure there's a bunch of Sabra crazy in there, but she totally registers as one of Ikki's gang, looking for a resting place curled up under his wings.
Her scent's still stupid weird, but. Sabra. 'Weird' holds less weight next to 'team'. Really, he just hopes that she doesn't get into too much trouble with other residents.
Any first impressions in return?
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Even after making the Blood -> Trigger switch, she still had her head pretty far up her ass. So she really didn't give him much thought in Sabra at all. She knows he was Hydra, and she can tell that there's something . . . incongruous with how he's fitting in with them all now. She might grill him on it, she might not. Hydra in general is a bit of an awkward spot for her. She knows how important team lines were to them (about as important as they were to her!) But on the other hand, she managed to grow past the desperate, blind devotion that Sabra fostered. But on that first hand again she still respects it! So she doesn't see it as her place to pry and insert herself.
OK SO I HAVE CONFUSED MYSELF can you give me the cliff notes of his timeline?WOW WAY TO BE, LADY AND EXCEL. OK, how long until he gets up to pickle funtimes in Thusia. Has he discussed with Ur' yet?
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It is an excellent idea though, as he's really not that far from starting something anyway.
What have Trigger's impressions of Thusia's gods been, especially in light of how Sabra's were?
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The dating thing was a bit of a surprise, but honestly, if Haruto has both survived more than a week, they're undoubtedly well suited to each other. She's still oddly easy to talk to, and oddly enough, one of the people he strips away most of his masks for. There's no other way to retain her respect than to be honest about exactly how much of what he's doing at any given time is outright manipulation rather than open generosity.
He's . . . rather honestly surprised that she died and stayed dead, though. Even if it was Venna.
So what are Excel's thoughts on not-quite-Enigma?
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She doesn't get it and therefore doesn't care. YOU'RE ENIGMA ENOUGH, MAKE ME SOME DAMN TEA. :U Though just as he's surprised at her and Haruto, she's super weirded out about Prussia. She was also sad that he moved out but isn't taking it personally in the same way Dera is so much as seeing it as a symptom of the tragic dissolution of Hydracula.
Can you give me the cliff's notes version of Zexion's adventures?
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A TIMELINE:
Canon!
- Once upon a time there was a little orphan named Ienzo who grew into a bright kid who apparently helped another stray do horrible things and eventually destroy their world (mostly).
- Zexion was what was left after Ienzo's heart buggered off to be eaten by daaarkness.
- Being without a heart sucks! So he joined a group that was trying to fix that.
- Unfortunately, being without a heart means you don't always play nice with others, so some forces of cosmic goodness kind of took offense to members of his group kidnapping and brainwashing hero types.
- And in a right political mess, one of the Nobodies Zexion thought was on his side turned around and stabbed him in the back. And by stabbed I mean 'fed him to a rogue experiment to keep him from talking'.
- And later the aforementioned heroes wiped out the rest of the head Nobodies and it was all good, unless, of course, you were a Nobody, in which case it sucked.
Camp!
- Yay I'm not dead!
- Crap I'm surrounded by Nobodies and heroes who kind of want me dead. BE POLITICAL POSE AS A NICE GUY. OKAY. I'VE GOT THIS.
- Crap it's the experiment that ate me. Maybe if I feed it real food and send it on its way it'll leave me alone.
- Wait why's it following me
- ..... why is it calling me Mom
- And then Zexion was assigned to live in The Cave That Gokudera Built and eventually the mafia and a gang of skate punks taught him the true meaning of friendship, and it was all very touching except for how he was pretty (unsure) about this whole feeling feelings thing.
- He even made up with some of his old Nobody pals when they all found out their world and people had been pretty well toasted by The Hero and his plucky friends. Heck, they even kinda made up with the hero, and arranged for maybe patching up the toasted bits with their newfound Friendship And Being Decent skills.
- Then the hero and his friends all got Camp-reset. Crap. Back to square one.
- And just before Zexion left, this nonexistent country showed up and pinged Zexion in the Nobody place. So Zexion stalked him for a while (like you do), decided he was passable, and took him home with him so that Prussia could get a heart again like all the other Nobodies.
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- In an alternate timeline, Sora and Kairi remembered the five Camp Nobodies that returned to the World That Never Was. This was not that timeline.
- In this timeline, five Nobodies and one slightly-broken replica fought a very losing battle with a near-unending wave of Heartless, and it sucked. They were too stubborn to call it quits entirely, but they were back to the research drawing board without a lot of options.
- Worse, Prussia was pretty well fading out, and Zexion had become rather attached to that idiot country, not to mention that he considered seeing him safely into existence to be an unspoken promise to Ikki.
- ...... and then Gambler showed up and offered him a deal he honestly couldn't refuse. Zexion's only provision was that time wouldn't pass while he was gone. Gambler agreed (or at least, guaranteed it in the event Zexioin actually MADE it back), and off they went.
..... Sabra
- Hahahahahahaha.
- Joined Hydra as a blank, impressionable dusk. Got enough of Ienzo's memories back to function, started getting attached to his team, got REALLY attached to his team, and then the Old Man ate the one of them he'd relied on most.
- Tried to limit break her out. It didn't really get her out so much as it got him in, which honestly wasn't an ideal resolution to that issue at all.
- And then the Old Man ate him for a few generations. Suck.
- Finally gets out, rejoins Hydra as, again, an impressionable dusk, and then gets someone else's soul downloaded into him.
- ALL THE IDENTITY ISSUES and friendship and abandonment and stupid people issues. His grumpy bitchy levels go over 9,000, and he maybe almost breaks Gokudera a bit when he realizes Gokudera sees dying as a completely acceptable option and that he's eventually going to get himself killed and eaten and there is absolutely no way for Zexion to stop that.
- Eventually makes it to good end and gets his wish—weapons that will act as pseudo-keyblades, letting him and the other Nobodies finally finish their Kingdom Hearts and make their world a real
boything.- Also gets his original Hydra brosis' well-chewed soul in a bottle. Bonus!
After Sabra
- With King's control broken, Zexion took a dark portal home and got back to his city just in time for his locked memories of Camp to hit.
- bluescreen bluescreen bluescreen fzzzzzt
- WELL. THAT'S A LOVELY THING TO REPRESS good thing there's all these heartless to deal with.
- And so it was, after a period of level grinding that would have made a Disgaea character proud, The World That Never Was's heart grew from a size zero to a far more respectable small-or-maybe-medium-if-we-like-you, and in one of those epic, climactic, sweeping AMVs, all of the former Nobodies crawled and wriggled out of their suits, greeting the first dawn of their world as real, complete people.
- The world outside their city took its form from Gilbert's memories; open countryside, fertile farmland, the distant blue of a sea. Cornflowers and linden trees. Their world took his name, too, and his language, and his culture merged in with their pseudo-Japanese own.
- As for Zexion, the questions in his life shifted from 'will I cease existing if I don't believe in myself' to 'what size of sewer pipes do we need to support the city's population' and he was honestly pretty content. He spent his time on the menial bureaucratic things Marluxia wasn't interested in, gummi ship designs, and repairing the replica's heart.
- Blade's memories were fucked beyond retrieval, but with her soul in a replica body things worked out well enough. Much to the Riku replica's eternal not-always mock ire, Zexion ended up adopting her too (like he does).
- And everything was pretty okay until the day Zexion was crushed under a landslide.
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- He totally programmed a data replica into the castle's mainframe just in case something like this happened, which probably lasted right up until Prussia got Jenova'd. Or Lavos-spawned, but you know, after a while those world eaters all look the same.
So what happened with Venna?
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Despite this, she still managed to catch up with Scowl at the dragon's nest. Instead of STOPPING him, however, she decided to help him out with it, and both of them ended up getting hardcore Queen-touched. In their hungry and emotionally-heightened state, they decided it would be a good idea to try and eat Venna.
It was not a good idea.
I can't remember, has Zexion ever seen Excel waving her core around? I'm curious what a Nobody thinks of that.
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Though maybe it could be explained as her innate weapon which would be a bit more okay.
So why Eizon?
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She still makes a point of disliking the other gods on principle, but she's already warmed up to Eizon.
Which gods do Zexion dislike the most? Or like, if there are actually any applicable cases.
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And yet, there's all these pokeable places. Spots where she's trying to suppress rather than deal, where's she's just . . . a kid who died and is still coming to terms with it. But she's strong enough to come to terms with it, so he pushes. Nudges. Chips away at those flakes of instability to find the gleam of the Tohsaka underneath.
If he hadn't met Waver Velvet himself, he'd really question if her teacher is worthy of a student like her.
First impressions of the soul destroyer?
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I guesss Zexion basically touches all of her riled up buttons at once -- in the emotions sense as well as competitive sense. And she thrives on challenges and being pushed. Probably because she's also a pusher -- not really in the same way but she eyes a field and places herself and others. If this was a War she'd been trying to decide how fast she would need to kill Zexion.
Mmm but she also wasn't lying. She finds their interactions somehow encouraging but also embarrassing and soul destroying. And she'll take what little encouragement she feels she can get.
Does Zexion believe that they'll be able to escape the gods?
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- Okay that said, SADDEST MAFIOSO IN SNOW. Zexion is very aware of how much Yamaoto, Gokudera and Tsuna all meant to each other, and to know that he's been without that for two years of his own time is something of a punch to the heart.
- . . . that said, he's kind of surprised Yamamoto lasted two years. Respect points have increased.
- Hugging is a strange thing. It's honestly a trained reaction, rather than a natural one for Zexion, and Yamamoto normally doesn't fall into the 'should hug' category. They were never really close in camp until close to the end, and even then it's fair to say that Zexion left a far deeper impression on Yamamoto than Yamamoto left on him. But it's . . . not like Yamamoto has anyone else here. Zexion isn't actually sure, looking back, that Yamamoto ever had someone he could lean on like that who wasn't Gokudera.
- Yamamoto remembered something about him. Just a fragment, just some insignificant comment but oh how that was wonderful and horrible all at once. Not even 'you remember me' so much as 'you remember who I was to you, I existed enough for that, it isn't all lost'.
- It'll be interesting to see how Yamamoto reacts to the giant rift between Zexion and Gokudera now, compared to how they used to be.
- Zexion said as much, but he . . . he so wanted a better life for them than this. Better than Sabra, better than the ruins this severed timeline left behind. This isn't how it should have been, but it's how it was, for them, and he doesn't know how to bandage all these scars.
Any interesting first impressions from Yama's side?
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- The thread with Zexion was the first spot Yamamoto actually slowed down enough to be upset. Or rather, it's the most vulnerable he let himself be, which means feeling upset surfaced. This was basically possible because while Yamamoto has no idea who Zexion is, he ~feels~ like he trusts him, and Zexion hugging him bounced that up to a more specific older-figure-trust.
- That is a really unique feeling actually! The only person he has really had to consistently confide any weaknesses in (Squalo and Chrome sure, sometimes, but nooot always/often) is Reborn himself. Otherwise he just internalizes all his issues! So someone actually being there, even if just for a brief moment, right when Yamamoto is possibly the greatest cornucopia of hahawhattttttt since that time he was 13 on the side of a building, is... magical timing...
- So frankly that dose of just simple comfort was perfectly timed to make Yamamoto totally dere for Zexion, and he basically just wants to hang out around him. Like. an injured dog that has grafted onto a small show of kindness and now he just wants to follow him around 8D; it is a uniquely powerful feeling and interest/draw to Zexion that's basically totally different from anything he ever felt in camp, so I am excited.
idk if you've answered this but what IS the huge rift between zexion and dera, was it caused by something =|a or is it just a comparison between the old relationship and the newer mixed up sabra one?
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That and, you know, Kanda's world. Allen's world. There are some things that are just far too big to assume you'll ever be able to tackle them effectively.
So how's that whole two boyfriend thing working out?
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. . . okay no, he's Lucky's boyfriend, maybe that much makes sense.
Haruto strikes him as the kind of obsessive, unabashedly manipulative person Lucky needs in her life. He's very intensely focused, and she . . . well, she doesn't share well. Haruto isn't someone he'd trust with things other than Lucky, especially given some of the tensions he's seen in Apt E, but where she's concerned he's pretty sure he'd be fine.
Zexion's also noted that Haruto is a lot more observant than your typical resident. Not a bad thing, but the comment about kids and responsibility caught him a bit off-guard; it isn't often that he's someone noticed, rather than the person doing the noticing.
As for Zexion moving out, there were two connected reasons.
The first was Gilbert showing up. The first night, when Zexion was here alone, he just curled up with not-Scowl-but-Nova and the sharks and was pretty okay laying there and super suppressing his feelings re: his unexpected and untimely demise, and the possible consequences thereof. Day two, Gilbert showed up and Zexion . . . couldn't go sleep with Hydra. Gilbert needed him, and he didn't even really think of dragging Gilbert into the pile because Gilbert has his pride, and getting cuddles surrounded by past people who have forgotten you is not a place for that.
But it's not like the apartment really had any free rooms, or even spare furniture that wasn't in use. So they slept out in the north living room much as they had back before Sabra happened; Zexion sitting up and half keeping watch, Gilbert's head on his lap.
The second reason was that, after the Nova-Prussia 'let's make a country in Thusia' thing, Zexion needed distance. He really honestly couldn't take it, not on top of already bottling up his own feelings regarding both Gilbert's destruction and his own. Hydracula's a close environment, but it's not a particularly supportive one. Everyone's okay leaving everyone else's trauma alone until it absolutely has to be addressed, and while that can be a good thing given how much trauma there is, it's not an environment he could be in and still be happy.
What got Nova and Haruto off on the wrong foot?
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First- Parrot was once-upon-a-time there for Haruto's first memory. Which gave Haruto past life feelingssss and also he recalled his hatred for the other knights and his love for Anis. Which! Functionally meant Haruto had an episode of SHE SHOULD BE MINE AND MINE ALONG LOOK AT NO ONE OTHER THAN ME THE OTHERS SHOULD DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE. And Haruto had at that point been hanging around Hydracula, he and Lucky had a deal that he'd give her missions for anything she wanted, she'd get things, he'd get memories, good deal on both their parts. So, Parrot told this to Scowl, and Scowl thus learned v. early that Haruto is obsessive and possessive, and firmly labeled him in mind as a creep. Also I think he never got told context and might have thought Haruto was in fact talking about Lucky when he talked about "her".
When Haruto showed up in Thusia! He was very insistent that he get to stay with Lucky, which along with the prior knowledge Scowl had of him was not helping. Haruto was himself, and when threatened he tends to be that much more of a bastard, and more and more things kept popping up like oh yes, Lucky killed me? And I want to date her!! Which is suspicious as hell. So Nova was biased against Haruto partially because of those things! And I can't speak for the player, but also since Haruto was v. ALL OF LUCKY'S AFFECTION FOR ME that couldn't have been helping things since he was probably making Nova feel threatened, insecure. So yeah, they did not get off to a good start.
Also s-sorry for asking two questions above. ANYWAY, ONTO ME ASKING ANOTHER QUESTION:
Does Zexion have any hopes for the future, re: Nova? Or re: any of his people actually.
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SUPER... SLOWLY...
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So what part of Rider getting here hit Waver in the feelings most?
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He still doesn't think it's really real, I think the only reason he's able to still go about his daily business like normal is because it hasn't sunk in yet.
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Heron pinged him a lot in the Vade places, and brought those memories closer to the surface than they had been in a good while. It wasn't necessarily personal, after all they'd never interacted, or probably even met before this. But it was notable.
Scientifically, Heron's existence here opened the door to a good many questions. Whether this was Heron really back from the beginning of the world's end, or whether this was a reincarnation of what joined with Parrot, finally free when Parrot met his own end . . . there wasn't time to tell. Heron's link (or lack thereof) to Storyteller was also interesting.
List three things you'd like to do with your characters but haven't yet.
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You love me.
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Zexion's opinion of Messenger is rather particular. On the one hand, he's not at all fond of gods, let alone Sabra gods. There's a very deep-seated wariness that came from those long months underground; one that's difficult to forget, even when the deity in question isn't really a god anymore.
On the other, it was Messenger that gave him the tools that allowed them to create their world. Even with everything that happened in Sabra, even with earning that much, by the end, it was still Messenger's creations that made the difference. And that's not the kind of debt that fades with time, or goes away. Much as the situation itself is highly unlikely, Zexion would totally mafia for Messenger without giving it a second thought. Especially this Messenger.
Vexen and Ptou are locked in a room together. Who wins?
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