Question Meme II

[cloakanddaikon]

I want to write things!

Ask about Zexion things or Thusia things or heck even current interest or past RP things.

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[devotedtothecore]

So will you be buying a 3DS after all.

[cloakanddaikon]

Yes, how is that even a question. At this point I'm just looking over the colours.

How's that 'being here at the whim of the gods' thing working out for Chrysos?

[devotedtothecore]

He's... dealing. It's hard to tell how much of it is repression and how much is just... an almost jaded resignation. He's a tired man. He's tired of gods, tired of raging at gods, of dealing with a reality of powerlessness in the face of forces of nature and beyond that mankind, even as its peak of what he knew before, could barely hope to wield in equal measure. He's had that epiphany three times in his combined lifetime, now; the first on the day of the City's completion, the second in its last days, and the third as a Blank. And while the first broke his pride, the second and third broke his hope, leaving few pieces.

So he deals. Somehow he's still alive, so he has to keep that up. Living because you're alive, walking forward because you can walk, it's an integral part of what has always kept him going. Doing those things for the sake of others who want him to, others who would have wanted him to, and for himself. And at least for now... there are no Games. They rely on the gods for their sustenance. He can deal with the trades required. He's long past the age of some fruitless gesture of rebellion like rejecting survival just to show his rejection of the relationship's existence. There's no point to it. It won't make a difference. But living might.

So he's going to take the gods' things and build, and build, to the point where maybe they won't need the gods anymore. Make a place worth living in for himself and the people already here and the people who might someday come. Focusing on what's in front of him, ignoring the awareness of how futile it all could be, how it could be cut short at any time, if the gods' wills should turn on their caprice. A small hope for "maybe we'll be ready, then".

It's like making sandcastles knowing that the tide will come in, eventually, but doing them anyway because you don't really know what else to do. And the faint, faint daydream that maybe someday you can make one that will stand up to the waves.

....gosh that was kind of depressing to write

Reverse for Zexion? Unless it's been asked before, in which case, tell me about what Zexion is working towards right now (if anything).

[cloakanddaikon]

He's actually pretty okay with it. He doesn't really like gods, but compared to a) still being dead, b) Sabra, or c) Camp, Thusia really isn't that bad.

It's the kind of jaded, accepting outlook that comes from this being the third world he's now been trapped on.

Chrys's most and least favourite gods?

[devotedtothecore]

It's hard to really rank them at the moment, since the only ones he's had some form of direct or indirect engagement with are Dellen, Henrietta, Kain and Selyir (possibly Eizon on a very banal-trade level). The whole not-favoring-gods-in-general doesn't help.

Most - Probably the closest he came to a reluctant this-may-not-be-so-bad conception of was Kain, until he actually talked to him and then. Yeah. Others that he sliiightly favors purely on the impression their domains give off are Ranniel, Leedin, Albinia and Henrietta.
Least - ...Dellen in a way, in that for all she is purportedly a god of humankind, there's a whole lot she isn't letting on about the truth of the world. Domain-wise: Agon, for inherently obvious reasons.
Unsure - Kain. Eizon. ...Gerasimos...

What are Zexion's plans for the near and distant futures?